get well soon!

it sucks to fall sick, especially during exam period when you definitely need to be at your top form to face all challenges. no comfort food when you feel like sleeping or no snacks to reward yourself after a hard day at work. sucks! i hate the feeling and i know you too. so please take good care of yourself and jiayou! recover fast!

update!

many many events happen so far. went for many 21st party, had bday celebrations and went out with dabai. =) too many things to talk about. i am lazy so i should just upload the pretty photos.


dingod's bday celebration


funky snapshot!


glad's party


glad's party


KNS (we miss fat!)


KNS bday celebration


dabai!


toy's museum


pee, liting and i


pretty babe 21st birthday


donuts! =)

time to put a stop to the fun and get back to business.

i want my health back

i have not been feeling well for the past few days. sucks! no more feeling guilty for abandoning my 2 project groups to let them die on their own on mon and tues. i made the right choice to come home early to rest so that i would be a burden for them. more time to rest means i will recover faster and then i can join them in action sooner. yeah!!!!

seriously, it is boring to get sick. nothing to do at home except to rest, eat and take medicine. the worst part is having to swallow the horrible pills which have magical powers that can cure me. omg! i seriously hate them. totally lost my sense of taste. find no joy in eating anymore. bleah!

luckily, i am feeling much much btr now. not 100% fine but at least i am recovering. thanks all for showing care and concern and of course, nagging at me. yupyup. i have finally realised how scary being a workaholic can be. i will strike for a balance. =) meanwhile, i just want to shout it out loud. I WANT TO BE HEALTHY AND FINE AGAIN!

work work, never ending!

the amount of work that i have right now is over-towering me pretty soon. i dont understand where do they all come from? my close friends should know pretty well that i am the kinda person who die die have to finish the work for today before hitting the bed. this drive is no longer as strong as a few years back but its presence can be felt. and so what happens where the stubborn choo is back? her body starts to go on a strike.

i can feel my body slowly breaking down bit by bit. some is entirely not my fault, like the stupid dinner experience at my favourite curry wok! never go there late at night anymore. =( headache came after the fever. i dont know. my body just doesnt feel right, totally shitty.

i have reached my max pt of being a workaholic. i truly need a day of not doing anything, just resting and more resting. =) or maybe i should shower more often like 4 times per day? i just realised showering makes me feel good among all these shit.

man eating world

outwit, outplay and outlast. this should be my new philosophy. this is something that i must learn how and to perfect it well in order to survive in this man eating world. i had witnessed selfish and self-centered acts happening right before my very own eyes which seriously disgusted me.

everyone is in this paper chase. we all want to ace and be the best. somewhere along the way, some of them have lost their human touch which is truly saddening. what is the point of fighting over just to get the questions answered? i thought papers always commented singaporeans are among the most obedient lot of people. where is the order? or maybe i should start to change my mindset because in the future, only competitive people are the last ones standing.

personal gains, personsal advanatage, personal point of view! what is wrong with all this personal issues? start thinking for the majority! stop thinking everything starts and ends with you. there are so many other reasonable and logical factors to consider so i beg you to start thinking, even for a fraction of second. start using it before it rusts. argh!

seriously, today is just a wrong wrong day. it should have been proclaimed as a holiday. i dont understand the frustration that is building within me. there are so many millions people out there who have even more serious problems to handle but i dont know why i am so irritated over mine. it is always bothering me at night and the thought of A will lead to B, C, D and slowly, everything goes back to the same original source which has angered me for so many years. when will i be able to accept it as a matter of fact and come to terms to what's done cannot be undone.

i am just shouting a silent scream.

he knows magic

this guy knows magic perfectly well.


at sun and moon


puff up!


yummy tofu dessert


after the esplande concert


vivo!


laser display


songs of the sea!


teddy bear!!!


me with oscar

is it good?

i once told a friend that why he should not hide his feelings to himself. if he was sad, he should learn to sad. if he was happy, he should learn to laugh. however, my stand was challenged today.

i am the kind of girl who shows all my emotions on my face. my friends have extremely no problems in knowning my mood for that day. although i may have a stern face or am super unhappy with something, all i ask from them is just a few minutes of alone time. i need it as a buffer to cool my head and to think through. when i reply with nothing, is because i dont want to hurt anyone with my words. i know myself very well. i am afraid i would say or do hurtful things which i wish it would never happen.

enough of serious stuff. i am super happy today! it is declared as MY DAY. =)

struck me

it kinda struck me today. why am i not doing what i promised myself? there is definitely a huge inertia in me to start things going. i still dont feel the urgency because it is still the beginning of the nightmare. i guess i need to experience the same old shit again to shake me up.

yucks! i hate myself for allowing hipcups to motivate myself. i seem to have lost the old karen somewhere along the way. it is time to bring her back and yup, not to give up.

have not been feeling good about myself recently.

hope

we need hope to live on. we want to wake up to a sunny morning, with something to look forward to in the day. nobody likes to play in a dark and gloomy day. we just run away and hide under a shelter. however, sometimes it is just not within our control.

life can never be smooth sailing and if you do have one, let me tell you something. I AM JEALOUS! the degree of destruction varies individually. getting bad results can be a heart crashing moment for a results orientated individual but nothing to someone who has came to terms with it. it really depends on how well one handles the damage and the area of destruction can always be minimized.

escape could be one of the solutions. though it may not be the best solution for all, in a way or another, our body functions in that way unknowningly sometimes. i shant run anymore! does that sound familiar? i do convince myself to face the problem and seek a solution. whether the solution will work or not, it will be another story.

during these few months, i am glad i have found my shelter in him. always trying his best to help me whenever he can. so yup, thanks! =) i will wake up with a smile on my face everyday regardless the weather outside.

21st party

i dont know what i had done to my friends to deserve such a treatment from them on my 21st party. did i do anything that is unforgivable? seriously, i am having a love hate relationship with all of them. i will remember all the faces and make sure they pay back the same amount of even worse on their bdays.

haha. obviously, I DO LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS DEEP DEEP! why would i ever hate them for planning a k bash for me? just a short introduction of what k bash means. literally, it means karen! be afraid, suffer here! all my friends, kns, nj and nus came out with all ways out to get me. their objective is to see me ie a horrible death at my party.

kns knows i hate veg the most and they had to get me a veg sandwich from nydc!!! omg!!! the sandwich was nice because luckily the veg were those limited veg that i eat. haha. but under pee's threatenings, i was forced to eat the salad that came along with the sandwich. i guess that will be my first and only chance eating salad. haha.

i guess my nj frens are STILL BITTER over the carnivore treat 2 years ago. their sweet revenge continued. =( as a form of respect, i had to finish all 21 shots of weird combinations drinks they made. in running order, apple cereal, bean sprout juice, century egg milkshake, hot chocolate, cream of mushroom, cheesecake, green apple juice, almond cream, 100% lemon and lime juice, chunky monkey, dabai tun nai tang, grass jelly juice, green tea, soya bean and sauce and red bean, bloody mary, mustard shoes, loveletter, smelly tofu, espresso dinosaur and soda water. dun be deceived by the names. the combinations are super frightening like kang kong juice, chicken feet, mayo. omg! why do i have friends like them? for the fun of everything, bring it on! luckily i am not suffering from any serious stomache now. =)

i was stupid enough to order a strawberry shortcake with lots of cream. i didnt realize that in the first place. seriously, i would rather get a nice cake than to avoid the cream. yup, so our dearest ex chairman ghim collected all the cream from all pru cake and smashed it on my face. omg!!! before that, my kns had already smashed my face. so can you please imagine the smell on my face? it totally stinks like rotten eggs. =(

seriously, i really appreciate everyone's help and contribution in making k bash a successful event. though i have never seen a bday person so pitiful before, i had fun and hope everyone did as well. i was happy to know that even for friends who cannot be with me at the party, their best wishes still reach me. =) liting, hope your hall production went fine and yes, we must go out and pamper ourselves one day okay? i need a break after my event. =) and fat!!! thanks for the sunflower. it never fails me to make me smile. i will wait patiently for your parcel to arrive. thanks babe!!

finally, must thank my parents for helping me to do all the backstage work for the party. without them, i guess the whole house will still be in a mess when all my guests left. thanks for loving this stubborn and childish me. and also, to dabai, thanks for enduring all the shit with me and my bad bad temper. sorry to make you worry sometimes. i will be a good girl!

so happy birthday to me! be and behave like an adult. hope everything will go well for me and everyone! =) cheers to 21!

start

this holidays had been a mad rush. the number of full days spent at home lazing around can be counted with a pair of hands. bascially it can be summarized with 2 words, PRU and PLAY. calling and meeting sponsors, had not been much a help at SLC, going out with friends and dabai, spending some time with fat, chaleting with kns and new year celebrations with goi and dingod. my holidays had endless activities!

a new sem is starting tmr means it is time for me to buck up again! i will try to go for all lectures and tutorials. i dont understand why the pig genes in me are damn active now. need to study real hard or else i will kick my own ass. =)

i find the connection between humans rather strange. the pegnant wife is happy when she can feel the heartbeat of the little one. friends can read you like a book, while some arent even close to that. your family understands you and forgives all mistakes you did. well, i simply dont bother to care.

a brand new start to everything. cheers! =)

white christmas

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

hearing stories from friends about their holidays trips seriously makes me want to go travelling again! the funniest i had heard so far is definitely the GREAT contrast between dingod and goi.

i put my hands into the jacket immediately after washing my hands.
the toilet was warm and they have doors!

omg! we 3 couldnt help it but to laugh and laugh non-stop. it was just too funny how 2 of my friends had completely opposite holidays experience.

christmas is always the time to sit back and remember all my friends and family. share the joy of the festive season and thank you them for being part of my life. furthermore, christmas is another pit stop to remind me that the year is ending soon. time to reflect, perphas another day when i feel like it.

holidays!

dec is a month of holidays. friends flying to other countries with family and friends and also close friends coming back to spore to relax and catch up. dec is so happy-ifying! goi should be at china by now and dingod is leaving for japan soon!!!! JAPAN! omg!!! that is definitely a country i want to revisit with friends, especially the theme parks. hq, tiong and woon are going to europe! that is another place i have to go before i die. it is okay because FAT and mh are coming back to spore real soon. KNS will be complete again. =)

there is still a long list of must-do-things before school starts but honestly, i think i have not even achieved half of them. haha. time to chase after the time.

DECEMBER

cheers to december! finally everything that has to do with studies has finally ended. time to take a short breather, relax, recharge for the upcoming challenges. there are so many things that i want to do!

first on the list, i need to get a decent hair cut. my hair is seriously in a huge mess and i can no longer stand it anymore! argh! and obviously shopping and meeting up with friends. the main idea here is to get back my social life! and i have not taken snapshots of singapore yet. omg!! damn sad! i need a professional or better camera first.

those are just some random thoughts that come to my mind as i type. seriously, i think december is the month to spread some love to all my friends and family. something happened and has taught me a valuable lesson. cherish everything and everyone and live day as if it is my last. i dont rmb the last time i hugged my mother. i also dont rmb when was the last time i told my friends how much i love them. i feel ashamed of myself for complaining about my life and over insignificant issues sometimes. i should learn to be more contented with my current state and count my blessings.

though we never know each other, everyone here misses you and will always remember you. rest in peace.

stressed!

why wear a mask all this while?
laugh when you are happy.
cry when you are sad.
frown when you are troubled.
scream when you are angry.
shout when you are stressed.
wouldn't life be much more simple and easier with the mask off?
should others' comments really put you down?
will you allow that to ever happen?

sick of mugging

what do i do when i am sick of mugging? watch an ep of anime, laugh at the videos on youtube, mess around with my itunes, chat with friends on msn. and the only thing that is trying to pull me through all these shit is the uncontrollable excitement that i have for the month DECEMBER!

yeah! it will be soon be the end of the year soon and i am happy. =) top of the list is shhh.... cant tell because it is a S-E-C-R-E-T btw the 2 of us. she will kill me if i say anything. watching the movie hero with the happening gf, gladys. and also the fliming of BREAKERS 07 will be shown on channel 8 hao ren hao shi on 2 dec 1030pm. xmas! although i am not a fan of xmas, it is still tis season to be jolly! and then and then the countdown to 2009! omg!!!! i enjoyed myself lots at the countdown last yr and so this yr better be a blast too. but, goi and i cant laugh at dingod anymore. =( not forgetting the bdays! minghui's and hengqing's. they are only 20th and i will be turning a yr older soon. haha... and if hengqing you are reading this, you and tiong please buy GOOD STUFF back for us okay? or else it will be an end to our 4 years of friendship. hahahaha!! and look out for hot girls for tiong so that i can win the bet and snap photos of hot guys for me okay?

choo is loving december!

funny youtube video

something funny. a good recommendation from eve. love her lots! rocking jay's concert up next with her and minghui! =)

sick

it is not fun being sick. =( i have no one else to blame except myself. despite the constant naggings by goi "sleep early tonight ah", i refused to listen and see what has happened to me now. sad! why does good advice fall on deaf ears sometimes?

away with the theory of mine that i am able to study better at night. i am not going to obey this for the time being until my body is up and ready. i feel like an injured soldier with no medicial support within reach. i am all on my own and it is either make it or break it. yup! be a fighter and i am so going to survive out of this bullshit by myself.

i should be a good girl, rest more, drown myself in water, eat simple food (which i hate the most because they taste BLAND!) and not indulge myself in chocolates. i will be o-K-A-Y by tmr. =) stay positive!

linkin park, rock concert!

have i ever told you i have a crush on LINKIN PARK? omg!!! i was jumping for joy when yk told me they were coming to singapore to perform on the 13th nov at singapore indoor stadium. omgomgomg!!! i am still very happy that i bought the tickets during this mugging period. 24/7 studying will make choo go crazy!

although they only have 3 albums, all their songs are hits!!! the stage layout was simple but the super duper huge screen at the back was AWESOME!!! the red background, the falling stars but the best was the lighting with the shadows of the band members flashing. the concert started with a blast! everyone around me was SHOUTING with chester, with their hands held high. minutes to midnight has a totally different feel from their previous albums, less rock, more about war peace, the little things you give away just blew my mind. hearing just chesters screaming away with the music, it brought me to another dimension when i could seriously feel the pain and suffering. omg! i seriously love the live version of this song!!!

regardless how great their current album was, their older songs, crawling, in the end, papercut still stole the show. everyone knew the lyrics of the songs!!! jumping and shouting with them. yesyes, this is a rock concert and so it is super duper hard to sing. so just SHOUT with chester!

my best part was the ending. all my favourites were lined out one after another. faint (my seconday school favourite), numb, bleed it out. omg!!! i was telling zhihui that i was not going to leave the concert venue until they sang bleed it out. everyone clapping to the song. the atmosphere was damn HIGH!!!

the downside was they started late and they only sang for about one and a half hour. sad!! guess they were looking for more quality than quantity. seriously, i could see linkin park not putting in more than 100% effort but it was GREAT! they were able to have all the auidence on their feet without asking them to stand. everyone was high instanteously without them having to do anything.

this was my first time to a rock, english concert. and i am so loving it!!! i know mcr is up next and i want to go watch the BLACK PARADE!! but i guess, i will have to wait patiently till 18 jan for jay. =) meanwhile, i have linkin park as my laptop wallpaper, my msn icon and i am listening to them while typing this. i am falling in love with them once more!

i have never knew

i have never knew it will that bitter.

i feel like a abandoned child, sitting by the roadside on a cold windy night, waiting patiently that my parents, who only appear in my dreams, to pass by and pick me up. argh! if i knew it would be that hard, i would hug my dad's skinny legs that day and stop him from buying that day.

damn! in a whiny mood again!